Sooo... anyway

So the past few days have been a bit dull- i had two days off at work and start my shift today at 6. We have been encouraged to dress up for halloween. I have no problem about this if:

A. We were having a halloween party on a certain day and have fun- were not - unlike my local

B. Given extra funds to dress up for Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. (bit of a bummer if you have shifts all weekend!)

C. Given ideas what we can't wear due to health and saftey- The bar is quiet small- i couldnt like wear a tail or a cape say.

D. Told about weather we can be a bit risque.

So i am not going to dress up- i know its a bit of a stick in the mud- but i have enough problems wearing an apron and a waistcoat! But i would love it if it was

'okay saturday is going to be halloween for us- you can dress up and have fun'

Well its been a manic Tuesday at work- Tuesday for god sake! i was rushed of my little feet. People kept ordering Bannana Cocktails- and they are like the hardest to make! Grr. i was Crazy for like an hour and a half and my bar looked a mess once it had finished!

I remember in Uni we had a cocktail place- where they had their menu all over the walls of the bar- which mine seem to go everywhere, and they served the cocktails in pint glasses. No fancy business fruit - and for £3.50 you felt you were give a bargain!!

The MSN boy text me this morning- saying that maybe it wasnt a good idea to visit as it would only be for a few hours (he said 4)
i replied saying (considering his train gets in about 12ish and leaves about 7) that really it was 6 hours and that surly seeing me for a few hour would be better than none and that i was mad at him.

He replied saying he is going to visit - as he didnt realise how upset i was going to be about it, and agreed that seeing me for a few hours was better than nothing.

He havent had a reply to my YAY text.........

Joke,Why my blog is called the national debt.... Well my mum and dad joke that i owe them so much money, over the years from uni. Its like the national debt, i'm not sure what country i am ment to be....

The job is going okay, i was on the bar by myself- it was hell- who thought to put the newbie on her own??! I am now sozzled and my feet really hurt! All i think is that it won't be long to chiristmas then you New year and i can start looking for another one. I feel i have to give this a real go other wise i feel like i have failed. Plus one i know the ropes and wouldn't feel like a idiot all the time i might (just might) enjoy it. Thing is i am on my own again tomorrow- and so i won't be able to settle my nerves.- What a dunce.

Update on the luvuvure

Well i have been for the past few weeks been speaking over MSN with a guy i kind know from uni- we have both confessed we fancied each other- but did nothing about it, until a drunken fumble the last term of the third year. Now though- a year on we've been getting along great and hopefully will meet up on Saturday in London to see how it goes! and it'll be nice to finally move on properly from the boy.

Keep you all posted on that one.

Okay the work is going well- my feet kill!!

I am glad i am kinda being sociable again though! i want to open up my heart to this blog, but feel there is far to much story. i feel my heart is still broken, and i knew someone new to heal it.

I'm such a sad case!

Well Policeman was obviously intoxicated last night, because he has sent me a text saying that he doesn't want to meet up coz it'll only lead to sex. Hummmm

I told him that maybe its time to knock this 'thing' we have on the head. Me do like him, but i dont think hes the man for me..... Wont is i was too harsh?

Work at the cocktail place again was a little slow, to be honest i am a little bored.

Saw the Magic roundabout today though http://www.the-magic-roundabout.com/main.html i was pleasntly surprised. Robbie williams as Doogle was a bonus

Okay, the new job has been going well- not too scary.

Tonight was ment to be 'ladies night' and therefore quiet busy, hum it wasn't is was a little well.... dead.

Oh well see what it's like tomo- Friday!! ARGHHH!

Men:-

Haven't heard from the boy, which is very good and i deleted his number, YAY ME

Policeman, is texting me (went out with him in my uni days) and he's asked me out (sunday)- YAY!!

Getting very nervous about starting my new job today!

soon i'll be like Tom cruse...... oh yeah, except a girl.

Also found some very pretty sites on the web, i love postcards, and have been collecting them for ages- where ever i go i buy a postcard or collect a business card. This sight has been very inspriational and moving.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Keep up the work x

Yesterday i had an interview at an American themed resturant, one that i like going to- especially before the cinema.

Anyway i've always had a romantic notion of working this place behind the bar making cocktails, or some where that makes cocktails.

Well i got the job- and start tomorrow

Wow i dont like it when something good happens.

Working there is going to open a lot of doors..... wow dudde

Ever been hungry, but cant decide what to eat?

Ive been like it all day- and for lunch i had cous cous, which i found in the back cupboard and Smoked salmon.

It was pretty good, especially once i had added some Mayo.

So the National debt to my parents is getting bigger, i have to borrow change from Mum and Dad for the bus- to go to an Marks and Spencer interview- Which i didn't get.

Tomorrow i have a interview at a resturant in town.

YAY

So its been a few days since the row- and now its silence.... we eat quietly at dinner and one worded answers are the norm.

Its normal.

The boy hasn't rung since his random phone call the other week-

"I haven't heard from you in a while"

I wonder why!? I am trying to get over our relationship and not think about you!!

Grr....

The parents had a row- a big one- one with slamming doors and

"your a fuckin' bitch!"

thrown in for good measure. Now its the calm, dad in the bedroom and mum wanderijg aroud the kitchen.

Alcohol really needs to stay in the cupboard sometimes.

Ok been a bit slack... but unemployment is a tad dull...

Sleep till noon, and cravings for crisps and anything thats crunchy.